The wings of an Angel

The wings of an Angel
One day, that tattoo will be seen on my back... and you'll see me fly.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Role playing

Ahndie and Maffi role played as students in their report.

11.30.10
AHNDiE

Monday, November 29, 2010

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Friday, November 26, 2010

Movie

I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 1.


11.26.10
AHNDiE

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Monday, November 22, 2010

When it rains

I don't know why, but there are times that I feel so melancholic when it rains. It seems like the tears that has been accumulated by my eyes are being released by the rain. But I actually like it when it rains. It sometimes makes me feel good. I love to sleep. And I am loving sleep more when the angels are crying. 


Another thing is, after a heavy rain it has always been so nice to look at the window and see how the sun shines over the huge clouds. I can relate my personal experiences to this. The rain is my agony and suffering. The times that I am facing problems. But after all, after the rain, as I surpass through my hardships, the sun will smile and greet on me, "you did it". The sun symbolizes my new beginning, a second chance.


11.22.10
AHNDiE

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Almost, but not quite

He called and we talked as if we're not on the rocks. Yes, I laughed a couple of times. I pretend that I'm happy so he wouldn't think that I am that broken. He told me to cheer up. In my mind I was thinking, "how the hell am I gonna do that?" Okay, never mind. I'll just seize the moment. Who knows when is this going to end? Might as well make the most out of it. 


Oh well, he has decided. EVERYTHING was his decision.


11.21.10
AHNDi

Saturday, November 20, 2010

60-40

60-40. Yes. 60% sad, 40% happy. My last two posts will tell everything behind that 60-40 stuff.

I am actually happy for this night because we went out for our dinner at Claw Daddy's (yes, free advertisement). I really had a quality time with my family tonight. Good place, good people, good food... what else could go wrong? Nothing actually... until I received a message from him. Damn, he again ruined my beautiful night.

He is 100 percent decided to leave. Okay fine, then. I won't be stopping him.

I want another night like this. I am out with my family having a good dinner. But next time, there would be no text message to ruin my time with my family.

I have to sleep now. I just want to stop thinking, bothering my mind regarding that c*ap.

Good dawn.

11.20.10
AHNDiE

Friday, November 19, 2010

Worse

I hate it. Seriously. My feeling is getting worse. I have been keeping myself busy the whole day, not trying to think about him but... damn! Why am I wasting these spaces and writing things about him? 


My heart is burdened with sadness, anger and hatred. I want to burst out everything that I am feeling right NOW to him! I want to scream, punch and slap his face! That is the best way to release this f-ing, non-sense emotion. 


I actually want to cry. Perhaps it'll help lessen the weight of this sentiment. But it is weird. It seems like there is something in my eyes that is holding back my tears not to fall. Maybe this is not yet the right time for that. 


Calmly speaking, I want to see and talk to him again... possibly for the last time. But I don't even know if I would be able to speak a word or even look at him.


But see, we were never together. I was never his girlfriend and he was never my boyfriend. Although we used to go out. He has full of efforts just to see me. He lives in Cavite and he's been to Quezon City, Taguig and San Juan to be with me. Good enough, eh? Impressive actually.


Oh well, the crowd is now giving us applause for the job well done we did on our play. He's such a good actor, he was able to please the audience. Time has come, the curtains are finally closing. We must now bow down as the red curtain is slowly filling up the stage and covering us. We turned our backs to the audience and to each other as well while parting ways.


I realized that we need to say "goodbye" for the moment for us to see each other again... 


go on and take a bow..


11.19.10
AHNDiE

Thursday, November 18, 2010

5, 4, 3, 2 ...

Thursday ngayon. Photography ang class namin. Same thing, hanggang ngayon introduction pa din ang ginagawa namin. Well, I can comprehend why until now we're still introducing ourselves. Our prof wants to know us personally, not merely by face and name. Good point for him. 


After class, myself, Isah, Sarah and Princess went to Glorietta and there we had our lunch. Next is Isah and I watched MEGAMIND. Hehe, Megamind is AWESOME. Such a rockstar and badass -- at first. Because to spill it all up, he basically became the good guy at the end of the movie.


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My evening wasn't so right at all. It's like a whirlwind. I'm being outrageous with my emotions. We used to be so happy and now we're talking about our parting. I DON'T GET IT! For sure we did not meet for nothing, but what the hell is happening now? What could have possibly gone wrong? I had high hopes for this one and so as everybody else. I thought this is going to be the start of something new, something different, something better. But it all turns out to be the other way around. If whats happening is just a dream, I badly want to be waken up. Nevertheless, I know this is true. Neither this is an illusion nor a dream.


I am aware that nothing happens for no reason. And that is what I am looking for, the reason why these are happening. I also know that it is my choice that led me here. I chose to be here and now I am paying the price. Yet I know, someday I'll get this all paid off.


I am hurt. I am sad. I am vulnerable. My emotion is again taking over my rationality. 


"The heart has its own reason which reason knows not of." - Blaise Pascal


11.18.10
AHNDiE

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I'm learning

"Some people would settle for electronic impulses rather than real presence." - Jess Castro


True indeed. Because of this technology that we have, most of us settle in virtual world. It seems like we do EVERYTHING by means of internet. We shop, we talk, we do business and all those other things that can actually be done with a personal interaction. Yes, it is true that this technology can make our lives easier but with moderation. Without moderation, this technology can be destructive.


Too much exposure to the virtual world can actually lessen our interpersonal skills. Our pictures that are usually posted in our social networking sites are merely representations. They are our avatar and not the real us.


Those are a few points by Adel Tamano on his note "Goodbye, Facebook".


http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_109212352477391&view=doc&id=111720575559902

11.17.10
AHNDiE

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Drive Safely

At last! I was taught by my father to drive using our automatic transmission SUV. Yes, an SUV for a starter like me. Commonly, first timers would use a sedan but fortunately I ain't one of the "common". 

And yes, I know it is advisable to first learn how to drive a manual transmission car. I'll soon get there. But for now, I'm still having an "introduction" to driving.

Anyway, I am excited to learn and have my driver's license! 

11.16.10
AHNDiE

Monday, November 15, 2010

Ordinary

Monday it is. First day of school for the week. I really had a hard time to get up off my bed because my body still hurts from head to toe. I have expected this body pain already because of the extreme activities we had during the weekend.

Normal day. Familiar scenes, familiar faces.

During lunch time, I am supposed to attend a meeting regarding the Gawad Kalinga Core Group that is being put up in AC. Unfortunately, that same time I had to go to the guidance office for the interpretation of our guidance exam. I chose to go to the guidance exam interpretation.

According to the exam, I have the LEADERSHIP skills. I am as well a social yet a private person. Not bad. :)

11.15.10
AHNDiE

I Survived

FRIDAY, 11.12.10

After class, I wasn't able to come back home anymore because it is already the start of our SDFC, Tatak AC Module 2. We, the participants went straight to the 5th floor at Therese Emmanuel Building to finally open the Module 2 of our leadership training. Our first activity is the "trust fall". We were asked to stand on a 3 feet platform and fall on our back. Of course we landed on our co-participants' arms. After that we had our dinner and we slept early because we have to wake up at 5am the next day.


SATURDAY, 11.13.10


I got up a little earlier than my friends. I was waken up by the low temperature inside the room that in the middle of my peaceful sleep, it was disturbed because my blanket can warm my body no more. And so I have to wear my jacket. Going back to Saturday morning, after having our breakfast we board the bus and took the road going to our campsite at Bigis Camp in Rizal.


This day is jam packed. I really don't know how am I going to make the very long day of activities fit in a paragraph.



  • We had a race going to the campsite. We had to use a compass to reach the place. Good thing I am knowledgeable with reading the compass.
  • Our group got first in the site. We had our lunch. After a few minutes of rest, we were asked to get ready for our day-long activity.
  • Our race had 9 pit stops. A some of the pit stops are really challenging and dangerous. My top 3 favorites are the catwalk (even if i wasn't able to finish it), rappelling and of course the zip-line which I had two dozes of it.
  • For the dinner, we had to cook our own food. I had a hard time to put up a fire because I have already forgotten how to make it. Good thing we got help from the residents.
  • We also had a bonfire. Unfortunately, it rained so we had to transfer at the hall. We had hotdogs and marshmallows! :)
  • And so it is already time to sleep.
One very important thing that I learned is that my small decisions in life can greatly affect other people.

SUNDAY, 11.14.10

It is already time to say "bye-bye" to our leadership training campsite and to the people who helped us. Before leaving the site we had a little awarding program. After the program, we had our lunch. And then I find time to take a few pictures with my group mates and everyone else.

At the bus, we were able to watch Manny Pacquiao's fight against the Mexican boxer Antonio Margarito. As expected, Margarito's edge with his height did not held Manny from throwing fast punches.

Finally, we arrived at AC. My father, brother and cousin was already there waiting for me.

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This is a really one of kind experience for me. Not everyone is given a chance to attend this leadership training. Luckily, I am one of those who are chosen to be a part of this event.


11.15.10
AHNDiE

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Magnet

*Knock, knock, knock*
*Stood up, walked and opened the door half awake*

Tita Annie: Gumising ka na. 

I nodded, walked back to my bed and lay again.

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True indeed that it is VERY HARD to wake up in the morning... especially when it is raining. I feel like my bed in holding me back from waking up. But what else can I do, but to go against that pressure because I have to attend school for my class. 3-hour class actually. And yes, yes, yes. My bed is already calling me to sle--.

11.11.10
AHNDi

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

The chosen one

And so t'was the second day for our class in creative writing. The night before, I told myself to be early in this class. I really did my best not to be late but the FX driver did not let me to get it done! Instead of driving along the usual route, he went the other way and I don't know where was that FX heading to. Good thing that the man who is seating next to me was courteous enough to tell the driver that I need to get to Landmark. On the other hand, this discourteous driver dropped me near the Ayala Museum and so I have to walk a longer distance.

And so I arrived in class. They are already doing something. Our prof asked them to write all the letter "N" words that they know. And the second is we were told to write a sentence that should start with the phrase "Never again". After stirring up my neurons in a couple of minutes, I came up with an uncomplicated and sensible sentence, "Never again do the same mistake." As my partner, Luisa is writing our sentence on the white board, we saw the other groups' work and our one-line sentence looks effortless if it is going to be compared to their work. I calmed myself hoping that my sentence will still be considered correct. As our professor went through our work... viola! Our work was chosen by our prof and our classmates to work on. From that simple sentence, we were asked to come up with a paragraph, poem, story, etc. using "Never again do the same mistake." 

And so my work turned out to be like this:


Never make the same mistake again. Make use of it, learn from it. Navigate away from the misguided decisions that you made. Start thinking of how these mischiefs can change your life in a positive way. Numerous things are to be learned which will be taught by life. Take this opportunity to change the story of your past. 


Now is the time to make the difference. Every moment is a chance to take, so get hold of it, grab it. Note that you only have a life to live. That life is too precious to waste it on trial and error and repeating stupid mistakes. Neglect nothing for the things you've done, because you decided for it. At the end of the day, it is all in your hands on how are you going to become a better person. Never give up on life because life is not giving up on you as well. Continue living, move on, explore all the good things in life. Notwithstanding the fact that new challenges will come along your way, you must still push through with your existence.


11.10.10
AHNDiE

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

First meeting

Anne Daniellie D. Raymundo is my name. "Oh my goodness!" is my over-used or most common expression sometimes I even use curse words. I have a planner but I don't use it as a planner, I use it as a diary instead. I also experienced a lot of writing because of my journalism class last semester. I love to write random thoughts especially if it has something to do with my current emotion. Sometimes if I don't have a pen and paper with me I save those thoughts on my phone. In this class, I am expecting that I will be able to think fast and write sensible things at the same time. I hope that penmanship isn't the only one that is nice, but also the content of my work. I'd give my efforts in this class by coming in on time, submitting quality works on its due and be participative in class discussions.

11.09.10
AHNDiE